Torn

What do you do when you want two completely different things at the same time? What if you want the comfort and security of something old and familiar but also the adventure and uncertainty of something new and exciting? What do you do when you know that either decision you make will destroy the other?

I want the opportunity to try something new without sacrificing what I already have. Is this wrong? Maybe. Is it selfish? Probably. Can I help it? NO!

Lately I just feel like the things I have been the most sure about in the past are suddenly and unexpectedly shifting out of focus. I have been made aware for the first time in my adult life that maybe there are other possibilities, other outcomes to my existence. I want to be totally selfish and try new things on the whim that they might be the best things I ever do. What if I try something new and realize it isn't as sweet as it sounds?

I want to know the outcome of both paths before I can decide which one to follow. Impossible I know.

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Also would like to say happy birthday to Jordan Fortier October 5, Meriwhether Morris October 11 and Cristin Coleman October 12! I Miss all of you

Belated Birthdays

This is a tribute to Tomo's birthday WEEK. It was wild...I think I have just barely recovered. The first picture is how we all started to view the world after a couple of days. They are in reverse order because blogger is really pissing me off and it is too hard to move pictures. I love you Tomo! Good Times.

Im Optomistic

Ok so I finally woke up to some snow....yes thats right when I opened my eyes I thought it was raining but it was in fact snowing!!! I was way late to work because I stayed home and made breakfast with hot chocolate and of course marshmallows and then watched it snow while we had our first early morning fire! Hopefully this is a turning point...pictures to come.

Bad Karma

So I haven't quite figured out what I did to have such bad karma lately but whatever it was it wasn't pretty and I am paying for it now.

Two nights ago one of my best friends tried to commit suicide. I rushed down to the bay to be with her. I got back yesterday.

Today I get a call from my dad saying that my grandmother is on life support and they will be taking her off of it tomorrow morning. So I find myself for the second time in 3 days frantically trying to get my affairs in order so that I can rush yet again back to the beautiful northbay. Awesome!

Hope your day is going better than mine.

Just one of those days...unfortunately this is turning out to be VERY true

Inspiration

If ever asked about what inspires me the answer would be simple.
My father because he has harnessed pure passion and is one of the few individuals i know who is truly at peace with themselves. These are the two things I aspire to find every day.

What inspires you?